Insomnia

So I don’t know how many people actually know this about me, but I’m an insomniac. I know what you’re thinking, “every college kid is an insomniac,” but seriously… I’m legit and I have meds which puts me a step ahead of everyone else.  “Insomnia,” by the Electric President, is probably one of the best songs to capture the feeling behind sleeplessness.

It’s amazing how truly slow time goes by when you’re up at night and unable to sleep, or actually get anything worthwhile accomplished. Time just moves “so damn slow,” till you start fading into this numbness. Nowadays, I pray that my doctor will never stop prescribing me ambient. It’s been almost 7 months since I’ve been on it, and I can’t imagine trying to last more than a day or so without it. My body, in particular my head, just does not want to shut off. I’m sure your shaking your head in disapproval, because most people think pills are harmful and “unnatural,” but who can really decide what’s natural, or real in this society where we all pop pills for happiness, sleep, anxiety, and a few more hours of studying? You may disapprove of it, you may have friends that do it, or you may participate in this newfound way people deal with things…, but either way you can’t change it. As long as I can put myself to sleep instead of dealing with the mind numbing pain you get from not sleeping for a week, I’m certainly not going to complain.